My goal for so many years has been to lose weight. I have always been thin, and in my younger years was not doing healthy things to stay thin. I would binge eat and then starve myself. When life was feeling out of control I would do what I could to control it: not eat. There was a sense of pride in denying myself food. With every rumble of my tummy a feeling of satisfaction. I was in control.
But, once I stopped this bad habit and found control in other ways, I started to gain weight. I went from 125 pounds, (I am a curvy 5’2), to 169 pounds. That is a lot of weight for this little frame of mine. Unfortunately, I didn’t know how to really lose this weight. Obviously, exercise and eating right, but it seemed like it was so out of control that it would be impossible. Enter the treadmill.
Our house was too small for a treadmill, or any kind of exercise machinery. The gym was too expensive, and inconvenient to get to. I would do yoga and pilates videos, but not consistently. Then, one day I was watching a video for ‘The happiness project experience’, (by Gretchen Rubin), that I was doing and she asked, if there was an extra room in the house what would you do with it? I thought, for sure I would make it a craft/writing room, and put a treadmill in it. I realized that maybe this was possible. Our house was 1100 square feet, with two bedrooms. The only place that a treadmill could realistically fit would be the living room or the spare bedroom. If we replaced the double bed with a day bed that pulls out then we could fit a foldable treadmill in the spare bedroom. We got a bed at Ikea, found a hardly used treadmill for sale online, and I even put up some shelves to store my craft supplies better. Ta-da! I had a treadmill! I always wanted a treadmill in my home. There is something very bougie about having exercise equipment in your home.
Now, I just have to use the damn treadmill! I did okay at using it, but not with any consistency. The hardest part is starting. And then it happened, we sold our little house and bought a bigger house! We didn’t really plan on selling our house, and agent literally showed up at our door asking if we wanted to sell. The new house has three bedrooms, one of which I have made into a home gym. How bougie is a home gym? I know, very bougie.
The home gym has changed everything. That dedicated space is so important. The only use for that room, in my mind, is for working out, which makes me use it daily. I don’t want to waste that space. I have consistently walked on the treadmill for usually at least an hour everyday since August, it is January now. I have lost 20 pounds, which felt like they were falling off. I am able to fit into clothing that I had bought as motivation to lose weight. I am not working on another 20 pounds to lose.
Having that space really changed the way I looked at working out. I have room for the treadmill and my yoga mat. We also got some weight. I have been doing the 30-day yoga challenge with ‘Yoga with Adriene’ on Youtube. I also do ‘Blogilates’ pilates videos on Youtube. They are free, easy to find, and fun!
Obviously, losing weight does feel amazing. I am constantly feeling proud of myself for this accomplishment. I am not saying that being skinny or thin will make you happy, but being in control of your weight and enjoying the way your body feels will make you happy. I am so happy that I can pull anything out my closet and it will fit. Actually, the problem I have now is that clothing is too big. Not a bad problem to have!